Tarot Reading

You'll be endowed with lively enthusiasm and you'll see things with much optimism. You'll be very much surrounded and appreciated by your near ones, for your gentleness and heartedness will always be present. You'll feel overflowing with energy; profit by it so as to finish at the fastest the various projects which you've left pending since a long time, or to make the trip which you've perhaps postponed several times under vaguely plausible pretexts.

XX - Judgment
This card basically means that one can have high hopes for one's love life. Most of the yearnings of one's heart will be fulfilled. For those who live in couple, a new impetus in their conjugal relationships will take place. Habitual misunderstandings or tensions will greatly soften, and tenderness and sensuality will increase substantially. Those who are single will have numerous opportunities to put an end to their loneliness. New encounters will occur, and love at first sight will rather be a matter of course.

XIIII - Temperance
This card basically means that one's affective life will be much more centered on friendship or amorous friendship than on fiery and passionate love. For those who live in couple, faithfulness and the sincerity of the sentiments will appear as a matter of course. Their relationships will evolve in plenitude and mutual understanding, and no cloud will come to cast a shadow on this agreement. Concerning those who are lonely, new encounters will allow for serene, harmonious, and sympathetic relationships. But such relationships may very well remain only at the stage of pure and sincere friendship.

XVIII - The Moon
This card basically means that affairs of the heart will be varied according to different situations. In many cases, there will be doubt about the sincerity of sentiments and misgivings about letting oneself love or be loved. For most of those who live in couple, the Moon will prove favorable to family ties, to faithfulness, to devotion as well as to tenderness and warmth. As for those who are single or who live non legal relationships, the Moon will provoke instability, confused situations, or treacheries.

XXI - The World (or Lady Luck)
This card basically means that one will be in a position to satisfy most of the desires of one's heart. No cloud is likely to come to darken the amorous sky. For those who live in couple, love and tenderness will reign as absolute masters. The time that elapses will strengthen the conjugal relationships more and more. For those who are single, new encounters are quite probable, especially during great and small travels. The new relationships will very rapidly take on importance.

X - The Wheel of Fortune (or The Wheel of Fate)
This card basically means that one can expect much joy and hope in one's love life. There will be a renewal and enhancement of sentiments. For those who live in couple, movement and fancy will come to replace routine and thus will bring about a beneficial change in the habits of their conjugal life. For those who are single or unsatisfied with their present love situation, new encounters are in the offing, allowing for the hope of happy relations. But one should not be too optimistic as such relations will be subjected to many ups and downs.

Little Alice Hops into the Looking Glass

We don't see things as they are, we see things as we are. - Anais Nin

i think i can relate to anais nin. but i feel so alone. not lonely just alone and i've got jeff buckley (grace) on repeat. thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking thinking... round and round the merry-go-round whirls and twirls and i hang on and lean out and life becomes a blur of colour, giddy, dizzy, sickening momentum until i lean in and i'm perched on a horse and its going slow and up and down and going nowhere...

Hopeful Pessimist or Wary Optimist?

PRAYER

Bring me ashore where you are that I may still be with you, and at rest.

Your name on my lips, with thankfulness, my name on yours, with love.

That I may live in light and know no terror of the dark; but that I live in light.

When I achieve quiet, when I am in attendance, be present to me, as I will be to you.

That I may hear you, like a lover, whisper yes but that you whisper yes.

Be close to my life, my loves, as lost son to mother,as lost mother to son. But be close.

Come to me on days of heat with the cool breathing of white wine, on cold with the graced inebriation of red. But that you come.

That you hold me in a kindly hand but that you hold me.

Do not resent me when I fail and I fail, and I fail, and I fail.

That I may find the words.

That the words I find to name you may approach the condition of song.

That I may always love with the intensity of flowers but that I love, but that I always love.

- John F. Deane

How many times do you hold on when your need is to let go?

How do you hold onto something that does not exist?

Looking at the promise of dreams spoken, hoped for, is illusion,

a hopeless illusion.

I wouldn't want to change anything

him, me.

it works or it doesn't but it is

defying physical definition

to be

something

what is it?

And where do I go now...

where will this journey take me

I take the first step and wait for the unfolding of what will be.

The Universe

The eclipse

A rocket launched full moon, jet fuel fired blast of heat that seared their upturned faces as it blasted to space. Twisted thoughts wickering and wrapping like melted singed hair sticking around earth bound bodies, aftershock thrusting astral ether downward driving emotional waves dipping steep troughs plunging down listing upward. Sizzzle fizzle steeeamm. Fury fire passion thought turning looking glass of souls cavorting legs wrapping tongues kissing licking sliding tasting drinking sip lick eat devour. Sweet salt sour. Yin and calm green and cool to Yang and pulsing fiery orange sun blazing on corrugated iron. Hands exploring body forms fingers lifting lingering feeling grasping cries of pleasure desire red velvet rubbing stroking slinky pink satin pale white silk rainbow euphoria of orgasm groaning exploding heat volcanic lava flows through the lingering light of the stained glass cathedral window of moon glowing pulling tides dragging dreaming wishing light lingering to fade before dawn blasts a heated furnace of light on tortured eyelids.

Mars (in Taurus) Retro

Mars is looming close to the earth in the east.

Mystic Medusa's F.Y.I. Retro-Mars Tips

Non-Productive Ways Of Dealing With Retro-Mars:
* Bitching.
* Paranoia re things cannot change.
* Guilting children for being selfish little merdes.
* Corrective Nagging of Overlings to ensure they recognise your 'worth'.
* Scheming vastly inappropriate seductions.
* Sulking on couch watching naff television and eating crap genetically modified irradiated whatever food.

Productive Uses of Retro-Mars In Taurus.
* Sex
* Gardening
* Martial Arts
* Cultivating art of serene patience sans biting fingernails to quick.